Current: the library,
warmed in the winter sun
not searching
quiet
When I am distracted by something, I look for it. I look for it like it is my job, and I will not cease until I find it. That's a little insight into my mind for you. So, the past couple of days, that is what my mind has been doing. I have been everywhere and nowhere, constantly seeking something that wasn't anywhere. I physically got up to look around for this distraction,
seeking but never finding, desiring but never attaining.
And so, I sat down, and came to a beautiful and humbling realization. It is the concept that, through this denial of things that I desire, I am being protected. Because I know that if I really got everything I wanted out of life, if everything that caught my eye was granted to me, I would be the biggest mess the world has ever seen. Because those things that I want- well friends, they just aren't what I need. I've learned the nature of my protection through watching others desire things with their whole hearts and receive them, and then I watch them be destroyed by the very thing they thought would bring them life. It's a heartbreaking reality, but one that seems to be redundant in everyone's life.
But here's the cool thing:
God is constantly just pointing us back to him. He's not breaking us, or throwing us to the ground. But when we do get broken, or shoved down, he's there to pick us up. He's waiting to pick us up, and uses the pain of the things we thought we wanted to show us that he is all that we need. Imagine, if I sought Jesus the same way that I seek the things that pull me away from him. If I sought him with the same drive, the same determination, and with the same hope. Let me tell you, it would be infinitely more beautiful, and eternally more worth it.
warmed in the winter sun
not searching
quiet
When I am distracted by something, I look for it. I look for it like it is my job, and I will not cease until I find it. That's a little insight into my mind for you. So, the past couple of days, that is what my mind has been doing. I have been everywhere and nowhere, constantly seeking something that wasn't anywhere. I physically got up to look around for this distraction,
seeking but never finding, desiring but never attaining.
And so, I sat down, and came to a beautiful and humbling realization. It is the concept that, through this denial of things that I desire, I am being protected. Because I know that if I really got everything I wanted out of life, if everything that caught my eye was granted to me, I would be the biggest mess the world has ever seen. Because those things that I want- well friends, they just aren't what I need. I've learned the nature of my protection through watching others desire things with their whole hearts and receive them, and then I watch them be destroyed by the very thing they thought would bring them life. It's a heartbreaking reality, but one that seems to be redundant in everyone's life.
But here's the cool thing:
God is constantly just pointing us back to him. He's not breaking us, or throwing us to the ground. But when we do get broken, or shoved down, he's there to pick us up. He's waiting to pick us up, and uses the pain of the things we thought we wanted to show us that he is all that we need. Imagine, if I sought Jesus the same way that I seek the things that pull me away from him. If I sought him with the same drive, the same determination, and with the same hope. Let me tell you, it would be infinitely more beautiful, and eternally more worth it.