sadness or sorrow or grief or pain or hurt or anger or loneliness or forget it all- apathy. Those are the things that have been occupying every inch of my mind for the last week and a half or so. And they will make a nice little home in your heart, if you let them. They turn everything grey, make you numb. But they don't belong there, believe it or not. We were created to see life in color. To love deeply. Sometimes it is hard for me to remember the truth of who my God is. But sometimes we just have to sit quietly, and listen. And He says to me, "I love you, Holland." To quote the brilliant and beautiful Alexi Speich, "I have come to the conclusion that sadness and being drained of joy are inevitable for a deep heart- one that can so much more easily embrace and cling to happiness because you know what it's like when it's missing. " So, I'm a little embarrassed, as I just realized this this about my 3rd post or so having to do with Adam. So sorry about that. BUT! This weekend we spent a few days at his home, with his parents, sassy high school brother, and two stinkin' cute basset hounds. It was great fun and was full of delicious food and good people. Here's some pics. 'twas a swell weekend, if I do say so myself.
is quiet rain on a drive home
is family, no matter whose they are is warm socks and knitted blankets is a couple of basset hounds asking for some loving is french press and pancakes is mother and sons is a window over the kitchen sink is a home Yesterday I asked Adam if he wanted to go on a photography adventure. He said yes. So we grabbed our cameras and drove for a while, until we found a place we liked; a forest that looked promisingly wander-able from the side of the road. We got out of the car and walked around. He said, "give me a word." So I said, "quiet." Then he said "Capture quietness." Then we ventured off on our own, to explore the softness and stillness of creation. And all was quiet except for the snapping of the camera lens and our feet on the forest floor. And it was simply beautiful. these are some of my photos: these are some of adam's photos: Yesterday was simply one of my favorite days. Here's why:
-I went to two pancake breakfasts in one morning -It was one of my dearest friends birthdays -Holly and Alexis and Ella and Carly and Emily -Adventuring with Alexi and Anna -Randy's for lunch -Mt. Simon -Promise by Ben Howard with Alexi -photography adventures with Adam -playing guitar alone for a long time -celebrating my Megsy's birthday -cheese curds (my favorite. seriously.) -Michael Scott Meet two of my favorite people on earth. They are the best of the best. I wish everyone could know them. I even wish everyone could try and do homework with them and realize it's an impossible task. And then spend the rest of the night in laughter. I'm not sure what I'd do without them. I am in love with the rain. rain is quiet rain smells like home rain encourages coffee rain makes me want to go on an adventure rain also makes me want to cozy up in a blanket rain causes people to huddle up under the same umbrella. rain is gentle and beautiful and makes everything else beautiful too. rain makes me feel alive. i feel it on my skin and know that i am living, breathing, moving. rain is rarer than sunlight, and that makes it all the more special rain makes known to me the presence of God. I feel him in it. rain reminds me that I am known by the One who created it rain waters the earth, it strengthens roots rain is not forceful. it waits. rain reflects more beauty rain is patient. That's why I am in love with the rain.
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